Trying to figure out what to do

Trying to figure out what I'm going to do, I want to be with him for the sakes of my child but I refuse to keep putting up with the bullshit for real I rather raise my child by myself before I have to run behind a nigga cause that ain't really my style. But it's like this I really don't want nothing from you so child support isn't shit plus what's 2 or 3 hundred dollars a month shit right when i'm putting out about 5 or 6 so it's nothing. I'm just sick of all the bull stuff and I refuse to let my child but bought up in this shit cause I don't even want to deal with it. But it's like this I'm giving you a certain amount of time before it gets here to figure out what to do, most people say well wait till after the baby born no i don't want to cause if u acting crazy this whole time then you don't deserve to be in my child life so I suggest u get it together right now cause I refuse to deal with it ok.